My String of Lovers

So this is an attempt to portray in words the number of lovers that I've had had since the time i understood with my emotions and not my intellect what crushes and love is. Not that I fully understood it this time as I'm still grappling to understand the meaning of this four letter word that's so easy to spell yet so elusive and so curious to understand that I think, its truth is both a contrast and a paradox all at the same time. An absolute and a relative twisted into one.